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Life's rip roaring roller coaster ride and the RNC

Drechsler. Detail from Large Still Life with Butterflies, Glass Bowl and Grapes, 19th Century

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Glacier (John William Grant and Thorarinsson Birgir) – You Got Me Singing by Jack & Amanda Palmer

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1XKK77KHrk

This pain

It is a glacier moving through you

And carving out deep valleys

And creating spectacular landscapes

And nourishing the ground

With...

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Stopcock and stopgap measures

Isis, 1st century BCE, from Egypt, bronze, 29.8 cm.

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Weekend nurse Jennifer came with the irrigation adapter and got my drain flowing again.

She even brought a spare stopcock as another stopgap measure.

Of course, the problem is likely to recur and a solution won't always be available.

It occurs to all of us that the ratio of solid tumor to more fluid ascites may have shifted, so that I've pockets or loculations of fluid that won't be gotten to with a new drain ...

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The uninvited guest

Redtail Hawk - Kate Wolf

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=udRFQOsrjpU

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The guest is inside you, and also inside me ~ Kabir

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The drain is clogged again this morning.

I find myself receiving the uninvited guest - a watermelon belly pressing against the laptop computer. The fog outside my window wafts in lemon scent and I'm plunged into the moment again.

Yesterday, Judy made peach ice cream and we sat out by the pond with Pam and the grand sons feasting on the fruits of th...

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Quick note - in the flow

Hospice nurse was able to come to my home with an irrigation kit and free up the drain line this evening. Lost over 2#. Enjoyed a bit of dinner and now wrung out.

So very grateful for the relief and that we can plan to do this at home weekly.

If the entire drain line gives out later, then I can get it replaced, but I have some breathing space now. At least from this problem.

I am still terminally ill.

much love & gratitude, Stephanie

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This Is A Rant!

Who can help but be happy with lilies like this right outside?

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An Awe-Inspiring Performance by Wu Man

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qOkfEOhNE5c

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Dear mylifeline friends,

I’m having a meltdown this morning and I thought I’d show it to you, since many of you believe I’m calm, cool and collected, no matter the circumstances.

Right now, I’m at my edge!

My drain didn’t drain t...

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Living and dying in the zone - which zone?

Beheaded Christian martyr, carved in wood and ivory. Champagne, France. ca. 1500. Wellcome Collection.

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Today, like every other day, we wake up empty

and frightened. Don’t open the door to the study

and begin reading. Take down a musical instrument.

Let the beauty we love be what we do.

There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.

~ Rumi

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I’m not a believing Christian, but I’m a practicing Christian. ~ Freeman Dyson, phy...

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Today ends well!

Gilles Frydman photograph 6-26-16

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Kinder by Copper Wimmin

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P9PX31loh_c

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All’s well that ends well and today is ending well.

Tomorrow, we’ll see.

Dizzying day – after not being able to drain this morning, I called in my hospice nurse who called in my hospice doctor who called in the radiologist who called me in for an afternoon procedure to bust the clot.

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One Woman’s Prayer - MaMuse


One Woman’s Prayer - MaMuse

Written by: Karisha Longaker

http://www.mamuse.org/music/

Lyrics:

Father

Earthly Mother

Divine Seer that sees

Create me again

Take me in your hands

Bring out what’s inside of me

Guide me in these times

While war is being waged

On my family

Oh make me an instrument of song

That I might learn harmony

Anchor into me the rhythm o...

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Streaming over consciousness' shoals


Rock Me on the Water

Get down to the sea somehow!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yAXl4kYZyoA

I strive to never repeat post a song, poem or image, but this song returns like the rain. It's unlikely I'll ever feel rain again. Nor will I visit the seashore, mountains, desert, snow or lush forests. So grateful for memories, they sustain me.

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I would love to live like a river flows, carried by the su...

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