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My StoryLast updated: Friday, May 11, 2018
My name is Anthony Fairlie I was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer on April 16, 2018. The post below is what I wrote to let family and friends on Facebook.
This is Anthony Fairlie as you likely know I have stage 4 cancer. That means it has spread from my colon to my liver and my lungs. Since it is in the lungs they will only do chemo to manage symptoms and prolong life. So we are praying that the chemo would have a miraculous affect on the tumors.
Well, before we even went to the appointment I was totally despairing I came home from working 3rd shift filled with fear and anxiety. When the Doctor went through her explanation I went even lower. I asked her if its in the lungs what is the best outcome. She said success would be 2-3 years. But she said she didn't like to predict because it could be anything, if the chemo didn't work then it would be shorter. But she said you've had that cancer for at least a year and you are still doing well. She has a patient with the same condition and she had her last chemo in 2011 and she is still here 2018 7 years later.
Well, we left there to do some errands. I was still overwhelmed with fear and anxiety. While we were driving the Holy Spirit spoke to me and changed my whole thinking. Instead of fear and anxiety of dying soon. He said what would you do if you only had 2 years to live? What would you do different? The Light dawned. I would spend more time with Elizabeth and the kids. I would be the husband and father I always wanted to be but was too self centered, self adsorbed and lazy to be. I would spend time with my brothers and sisters and with Elizabeth's family I would spend time with friends co-workers and church family. I would say the things I wanted to but was too afraid. The song came to my mind "live like you were dying" I don't want to sky dive or ride a bull. But I want to spend time with people. The scripture came to mind if you want to live then you must die to yourself. Consider your self dead then you can really live. All the fear and anxiety was gone I was filled with joy and peace. So whether I live 1, 2, 5, years or longer, whatever, I am going to live every day like its my last with joy.