My ways are not your ways, My thoughts are not your thoughts.
So we have been waiting to hear back from the Mayo Clinic, to see what they might do for treatment. By waiting, I mean we have been calling and making sure they had all that they needed. Which isn't a bad thing because there was some confusion on my medical file between Mercy and Mayo. So Mayo received all my records on Wednesday of last week. We were told it would take 2-3 days for the doctors to go over everything, and then they would call and set up an appointment, but they were scheduling out into June. They didn't say early June or late, but either way if we were to wait to go to Mayo before starting chemo that would be over two months since being diagnosed. The person we spoke to said we should definitely hear back on Monday, yesterday. Mind you, when we were first told I have cancer the doctor said if we did nothing I may only have six months. So this was weighing on our minds through the weekend. So on Monday morning we called Mayo. They still haven't received any word from the doctors, but we may hear later today and to call around 1:00 pm. We call back after 1:00 and Kathy the representative explained that they only received the records on Friday and it takes 2-3 days. With frustration in our voices we explained to her that they had received our records on Wednesday. We were suppose to hear no later than today. Our frustration grew to anger as we listen to her explain about the new computer system and the doctors needing 2-3 days to review etc. Then we both vented that anger at Kathy explaining the time frame, and waiting, and all. We spoke very harshly to her and hung up. The rest of the day we were frustrated and resigned ourselves to starting chemo at Mercy without a 2nd opinion.
This morning while we were doing our devotion. The Lord convicted me about the way we spoke to Kathy, and that we were putting our faith in people and hospitals, and not trusting Him. I shared my thoughts with Elizabeth and she agreed. We both confessed our sin to God and prayed that we would be able to speak to Kathy to apologized and ask her forgiveness. Further, we said we would trust in the Lord so we decided to not call right away but wait. We were meeting a friend for breakfast so we decided we would wait until after that to call Mayo. Just after 8:00 Mayo called and it was Kathy. Elizabeth immediately told her how glad we were that she called. Elizabeth apologized and asked Kathy to forgive her for the way she spoke to her. Then I was able to also speak to her and apologize and asked her forgiveness as well. Kathy was very gracious, she said it was alright and that she understood it was a serious life situation. I replied " No, we are Christians there was no excuse for the way we treated you." She was again very gracious and proceeded to tell us that we had an appointment for next Friday May 25th. We were filled with joy, relief, and gratitude for Gods patient, steadfast love, and kindness, AGAIN! We've spent the rest of the day rejoicing and praising God for is loving grace. We jokingly chided ourselves that we forgot how God has provided for us again and again through the years. We are still at the beginning of our journey, and we do not know if it will be long or short, but either way we need to trust the Lord no matter what. When we don't we need to be called back to Him.
We want to thank all of you who have been praying for us. It is evident that there is a large crowd of people praying. We cannot thank you enough for that. We thank you for prayers for healing and even further, we would ask you to pray that Jesus Christ would be glorified in and through us in every situation. We hope that we are able to encourage you as you have encouraged us. The Lord bless you.
Heb.4:14-16. Since we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold fast to our confession. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.
Psalm 103:8-11. The LORD is merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love. He will not always chide, nor will he keep his anger forever. He does not deal with us according to our sins, nor repay according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him.