we had some good times yesterday Lee Lee and me :0) we finished painting our butterflies and our monkey and frog "momma is really going to love this" she quietly says as applies the paint generously to the monkey "can you hold this for me so I can paint the bottom?"....I feel blessed beyond measure to have these perfect little droplets of time with our beautiful girl
"Mimi can you open this for me?" sure mimi would love to says I "here I will put on music for you while you open that” says she... silent tears sting the back of my eyes... I love this little girly
After two posts and a welcome on the blog I think it is high time I introduce myself. I am Sterling’s Tante, her Paps's older sister. Little Miss Sterling has always held a very special place in my heart. I have wonderful aunts in my own life and have always looked forward to being a Tante to a little girl. Spoiled she is by me, there is no doubt. The moment I knew she was a girl I started buying things and shipping them to North Carolina and I have not stopped buying her things since.
When she started...
A New Normal
Two weeks. Two whole weeks. I got a text and then a phone call that Sterling had a brain tumor and was being admitted to CHOC to wait for brain resection (removal of the tumor). “A brain resection we can do this” I thought quietly to myself. After all us Hockenmeier’s are RockStars. Thus our journey took a new turn.
Early Sunday morning it was decided Sterling was going to have emergency surgery. We rushed and panicked some, as family gathered. Then the peace that passes all understanding flooded our souls and we knew she was in God’s hands. After all he knows exactly...
Today is day 13 on our journey. At some point I kicked myself repeatedly for not documenting this from day 1. Sigh, how was I to know this was a life altering-- life halting experience. Days 1-7 are a complete blur. Anxious. Yes, we felt anxious, or rather feel anxious.
Just the two of us, Sterling and I. The room is quiet. She is sleeping peacefully. Others are showering, getting snacks and preparing for a trip back across the country. Here I sit. Waiting. Waiting for the conference with our medical team. 3pm is approaching so slowly. It is at this point I want our journey to move...